Stolen Christmas
Irony is my middle name.
Dreading Dr Appt
Dr. Appt Today. I had to change doctors because I changed insurance. Unfortunately, with Fibromyalgia, you have to go to a Rheumatologist. However, the disease is not widely accepted, despite the advertising campaign. I’ve had some horrible experiences dealing with doctors whom do not accept the condition, even though it is a documented illness in the medical journals. Then you have to account for the fact that not all Rheumatologists treat the illness, followed up by a good portion of those just want to medicate you into a walking coma. So I estimate that maybe 15% of Rheumatologists actually treat the illness, with a smaller portion educating themselves and their patients on the best ways to deal. With quite a bit of reading on local doctors that actually took my insurance I called and asked the nurse at the new Dr. Office about Fibromyalgia and how they treated the illness. So while I was dreading this appointment – you have to do the whole new patient thing – I might have lucked out. The appointment went well, the doctor was, kind, educated on the latest for the disease and we agreed on the illness management regime. Hopefully, this means I will start feeling better soon.
Unspectacular Quirks
Unspectacular Quirks?
This was brought up by a former post from Ann. Everyone has quirks to their personalitly, its what either gives us a unique behavior, sense of humor, characher, style or persona, our individuality . I thought I could share mine with you then you… if only to make you laugh.
Quirk: a peculiarity of action or behavior.
Truly unspectacular quirks:
1. I research anything I don’t understand or am interested in… I will look it up then dump the information onto the next poor person so asks me about the subject… I am the bearer of an unbelievable amount of useless facts, and just plain random information… hence why I get the question “why would you know that information?”
2. I absolutely hate embarrassing moments on TV or in the movies… I will leave a room or change the channel for a moment to escape watching it … to the point where if I have the remote I click to change the channel, I do it unconsciously… until the other people in the room yell "Hey"… However — I don’t embarrass.. it takes quite a lot for me to get embarrassed, or at least a tremendous amount of special effort is required… it is the ‘when are these people ever going to see me again’ theory .. and if it is in front of family or friends then they have probably seen me do stupider stuff.
3. I have the mommy disease of ‘repeat’… when you are having a ‘talk’ with your children, ages can vary… but it is especially apparent when they are teenagers… they get that glossed over look in the eyes – signaling that they have left the conversation even though they are still physically there… Once you get going in the ‘talk’ and don’t get a verbal response you ‘repeat’, sometimes the exact same words or you can say the same thing in several ways — hoping beyond hope that it actually penetrated the ‘kid force-field’ – well it occasionally seeps into the rest of life — I am good at catching it but still it is a quirk I can’t seem to shake
4. I am completely unable to repeat a conversation I have had with anyone… If you say something to me even not more than 30 seconds ago.. I will summarize – paraphrase – rephrase – interpret – reword but I am mentally / physically unable to ‘repeat’ what you said .. I am talking if it is three words or more you will get the ‘Jax Version’ of the conversation — Hello I am an natural blonde, my brain is an etch-a-sketch with broken drawing handles
5. I am physically violent when I laugh… this is mostly dangerous to anyone within arms reach.. I LOVE standup comics, it is also with movies, TV, live shows and it doesn’t matter if we are in public or not… When I find something rip roaring funny I smack my knee or leg or side occasionally or more often if you ask my family I smack the person next to me…my poor husband and children could probably claim abuse… oh by the way I don’t hit like a sissy…
6. I will organize-clean anything…. It is sad but true… I don’t have OCD but I absolutely detest piles-stacks, don’t get me wrong right now I have three baskets of laundry in my living room, they are clean I just haven’t gotten to putting them away, they have been clean since Wednesday – However if I can’t find something then it has to be organized… I especially hate sticky… I can handle any mess but sticky…it has seeped into my friends lives… If I can’t handle your living space we just meet in public or my house… Otherwise I tend to clean or pickup while I visit you, I have managed through sheer will to cut it down to the area we are actively in most specifically just the space that is within my reach… everyone always know where I am sitting so it has its uses… my friends laugh at me but they can and have used it to their benefit… LOL.
You have to be able to laugh at yourself but if you can’t …. I hope I don’t know you.
Quirks… foibles, peculiarity, oddity, eccentricity, idiosyncrasy — What are your six?
AC Died!!!! ARRRGH!
ast night our AC died… We live in Texas it’s June and even at night it stays hot — example its 7pm and is 95 [35 celisus]. Ah!! the last thing we need is to have to pay to have the AC repaired or replaced. We replaced our inside uint about 1 1/2 ago and cheap is not the word we could use for this. The whole thing together would of been around $8,000. The inside unit was probably the age of the freakin house but the outside unit was only about 10 years old.
Anyway… got off track…
Chris called in sick last night – stomach bug going around… which is something he never does so when he got overheated last night he tought it was because he was sick. I am in an ambien coma and I like it warmer so it didn’t bother me. When I woke up this morning I honestly didn’t notice – Bryan complained about it but he is a teenager and that’s his job. But after a few minutes I realized he was right and checked the unit,,, inside looked fine… the outside wires can freeze over so I checked the unit and nothing. I let Chris sleep in and when he woke up I asked him about it. He did the same as me but remembered the AC installer talking to him about different parts. Note… I always hang around and ask questions, probably to many but I need to know, we are the ones living here and unless the installer lets us have a direct line to him 24 hrs we need to know what is going on so we can rescue oursleves – enough to make sure it doesn’t make things worse. Chris hangs out to I am unsure if it was me who got him in the habit or it was part of his make up before me, either way, we take turns… don’t want to scare or piss off the installer. lol.
We priced the repair and we so don’t have the money to do any of that. So we started our usual research mode… luckily I can actually read something other than the internet. So I pulled out the real paper yellow pages… found a local company that supplies the same external unit we have to repair-installation companies… a very nice lady gave me the name of a parts supply warehouse that can sell parts to the general public and I called… they had the part we needed.. and instead of costing 350$ for the part and installation.. it cost us 15$… that’s right 15$… oh and the manual labor was provided by the hubby… makes him feel manly & useful. lol.
GRADUATION! ….FINALLY.
Hello from the long lost ghost of friends from the past… I come bearing good news and a story to tell. First the good news – TODAY I GRADUATE FROM THE UNIVERSITY… I will have a Bachelor of Fine Arts, Art History & Criticism. Which translates to – I can draw a straight line with a ruler – tell you how it fits and is important in history – then criticize it. LOL.
Now for the story… I will make it as short as possible.
My last post was in August of 08, those of you who know the economy has taken a sharp dive, especially the real estate market, foreclosures etc. Anyway, I was working 60 hours a week on average – or basically every waking moment. While being a realtor gave me some freedom to work from home and make my own schedule it has a double edge sword that way. Of course I did my best not to fumble but I did… the upscale home construction company I worked with had to let a great percentage of staff go – I managed to be retained through the first wave of lay offs but did not survive the second. So the majority of my clients were through this company which put me in a bind in addition to the fact my other clients couldn’t get funding for various reasons so they had to push back their home plans. Which left me scrambling for more clients to save my business. By October of 2008 we knew it was over and I closed up shop.
During this past two years I have tried to provide financial growth for my family. I can work any job you throw at me but I wanted to find the one which would be the one that would let us get out of the pay check to paycheck lifestyle and actually give us the leg up. The one thing anyone ever said to me was well if you had your degree… I was passed over tons of times that someone had been picked because they had a degree and that my 15 years of management experience was great but I needed my degree.
To that ends -= those of you friends whom have visited me in the past know — I have been working toward that goal for quite awhile. Unfortunately life, finances and simply the lack of time always is a factor, add in medical issues and you have a nice cocktail of interesting ingredients to an average everyday life — whom has freaking Murphy as her #1 fan. lol
While this was happening I found myself getting more and more depressed. My Fibromyalgia was off the charts with ‘FM days’ the medications were not working, stress and fear a big factor in setting everything off. After the decision to close up shop I pretty much collapsed for about a month. Pain the depression from all the struggles won. It is hard for me to admit I allowed myself to succumb to ‘the dark forces’ [lol] but I try to see it as allowing my body, mind, and spirit to recharge — it makes it sound prettier. lol.
I met with my doctor before classes began and made appointments during and after so that I could monitor my health with a watchdog handy… I will go till I drop this way I had a system of checks and balances. The doctor admitted that he was extremely worried about me — I agreed that I was worried about myself my darkness threatened to overwhelm me but I wasn’t going to let it win. He told me he could see the change of coming out of the dark and was glad to see it.
After many discussions with my husband and the boys we decided that we could make it if we clamped down — no frills [which we never had any real frills anyway] budget — so I could just go to school and slam out the remaining 5 courses – studio courses are like a lecture class and lab mixed into one – each class would be 3 hours long twice a week — ouch! But I wanted to do it – I needed to do it. I ended up registering late – had to appeal to the school to let me attend spring semester — obliviously I succeeded but not without a struggle. Then I had to appeal for certain classes to make a schedule work for me to graduate this semester. There have been so many ups and downs – family – finance – health – friends – car dying at mid semester – professors – course work — wow to much to tell now.
In the end — today I will be walking across the stage to accept my diploma and I am so excited and proud. I will have my husband, the boys and a few friends their to see [take pics if they remember to use the camera - lol] – I want the boys to see me walk across there and see that you can achieve your goals even if delayed. lol. I am proud that I found a man who is a love and friend who doesn’t only support with words but actions. He has been their for me in so many ways, from letting me spew petty moments, holding my hand through pain, letting me follow through even though he knows my body is at break point because he knows that if I don’t not only will my body break but my spirit. To say I am blessed is truth. We, I have had struggles and will continue to have struggles however we have the blessing of going it together.
Now that I have my freaking ‘piece of paper’ [diploma] I will probably get the I am ‘over qualified’ speech but I am diving in anyway. The job hunt is starting and I have some set ideas of where to go — but for now I am going to enjoy getting my ‘piece of paper’, my cap and gown are waiting we walk at 6:30pm tonight… Yeah Baby!
I have missed talking with my friends and I apologize for being so absent these last months, I hope to visit with you soon and hope you still want to visit with me as well. If not.. I understand and wish you only the best and I will keep you in my thoughts.
Blessed Be.
Teach them to share…..
Well it figures… teach your kids to share and what do they share? Germs. However, it could have been the hubby that decided to share. Either way playing well with others got me sick. Figures take me almost on my death bed to take a day off… and not for fun stuff.
Saturday and Sunday the hubby as well as Bry wasn’t feeling very well. Saturday night to mid day Sunday I started feeling poorly… ok go ahead with Fibro how do you tell it is a cold/virus/bug… same way you do without it, you feel like a special kind of crappy and run a temperature. lol
I worked all weekend but Monday morning … wow! I felt like road kill probably looked it as well. So I am schedule for a meeting at 10am. I stumble out of bed at 7am and text my associate… yep not gonna make it and why. I nudge the hubby and he considers calling in also… he is still feeling poorly.. but a conscience goes pretty deep for the two of us and he went in. ![]()
He told me later that if he knew that all the day was going to offer was his bosses yammering away at a useless series of ‘stuff’ that needed to be getting worked on with no resolve to the items anywhere in the near future…. he would have stayed home to.
This morning I still felt like raw meat [wow such descriptions... I need to up date my vocabulary] I still managed to get my arse to work.. I had a full day to ending at about 7:15pm… when my hubby call to tell me to bring home lettuce, soda & chips or don’t come home at all …lol — It seems he was sweet and made dinner — BLT’s but we needed the "L". Chips were required as a side…
we eat so healthily. lol
The soda is for the Crown that his boss dropped off yesterday — the hubby did some outside heavy lifting at his house — needed to move a monstrosity of a TV … Hubby and another co worker helped move it. got paid in liquor… not bad. ![]()
Only thing I didn’t get that we needed was a bag of ice…. which is better than what I usually do… I usually tell the cashier to add a bag of ice then forget to grab it on the way out of the store — making my purchase more of a donation at that point. lol
OH well. We survived the day and I am feeling relativity better… All I have to do is get through tomorrow… then I get Thursday and Friday off. ![]()
Side Note: Earlier this year I put in tons of resumes to jobs that paid a decent wage and what I thought I would be a good job – career starter. Now it has been 4 months and I just got a call back from one of them. It appears that I made an impression over the phone – never did get a first interview with them just did a call and check on the resume thing… managed to get a hold of someone in charge…although they decided not to hire someone earlier this year — they are in a position of needing someone now… the boss remembered speaking to me, dug out my resume and gave me a call. It is a Marketing Account Manager position and one I had actually discarded as being a possibility — well after 3 months what would you think? I asked the base salary, it is adequate not great — so I set an interview up for Friday at 9am.
There seems to be some mixed reviews at home about this. Earlier this year we decided for me to get a ‘regular’ job — the M-F 8-5 kind of thing — a salary so we could actually keep a budget in line. Then because it was taking so long … when this sales job opened up to me … I jumped in and tried to make a go of it until that ‘regular’ job called. Well it did and I was surprised to hear that my hubby was hesitant with me going. He says that its true I haven’t gotten paid yet but the funds will start coming in as things close and that I am doing great. ![]()
The change of backing has gotten me confused and frustrated. I did what he asked and looked for that ‘really good job’ [which I am still up for several of them -- but being government jobs it is taking forever to wade though the hiring process] This sales position was a last ditch effort to try to salvage some income… now the regular job seems not be what he wants me to have.
Either way… I have to go, I have to see if this is a good opportunity and something I should consider or if this is going to be a fishing expedition for the company or myself. I will go and see what they have to say and offer… then deal with the outcome. There is just as great a chance that they won’t offer me the job as the chance that they will. I guess have a happy thought for me on Friday and we’ll have to see which path rises to the top.
Hugs to all… going to go drown myself and try to find slumber land with both of my eyes closed this time… I guess I could visualize a piñata…. and take out my frustration by whacking the hell out of it… lol. ![]()
Define Insanity…
Insanity… its a noun. Madness. Lunacy. Psychosis. Mental Illness. = extreme foolishness, or an act that demonstrates such foolishness. = legal incompetence or irresponsibility that results from a psychiatric disorder.
Which translates anyone who is trying to get out from under the bill collector.
I have officially worked since July 5th straight through except for Friday the 18th – when I publicly lost a quasi-friend. Today was my scheduled day off.. Guess what I did?
Got up and dressed [professional work dress not slam out the door in PJ's or a housecoat.]. I dropped hubby off at work 7:55am. Drove across town to drop off paperwork and money that I had accepted last night — [I didn't get home until 8:15pm -- most days its about 7:30pm]
Then spent an hour in the blueprint – plan room making sure that the choice of plans we picked for my clients was the one closest to their ideal of a home [for the least amount of money]. Spent an unscheduled hour with my New Broker and Owner of the Company touring a new home site [posh posh area]. Which I told him simply that even if he didn’t use or like my opinion I was glad he asked for it. [Probably meant little to him but lots to me]. Back at office arranged for copies of blueprints to be made — owner said he would bring them with him to our meeting that afternoon. [nice guy - didn't want me to miss my lunch with hubby]
After which I rushed over to the Mortgage office to drop off the other half of the paperwork and money that I started with this morning. The loan officer was in a meeting still so I had her supervisor copy and sign for receipt of the delivery [I plan for worst case that way when it doesn't happen everyone is so happy.]
Well since we haven’t had much down time we planned a lunch date because my day did start out as a very open light plan …. HAHHHAHAHAH foolish mortals….So I rush back across town, pick up hubby — slow down have a nice 45 minute lunch…. then rush to meeting site for afternoon appointment. [poor hubby has had to catch a ride home most nights or wait until I am done... I am going to owe the whole IT department lunch or beers after work]
Meeting with clients went well. Boss arrived on time [always nice]. I surprised the couple with meeting with the Owner/Boss to discuss the beginning of their new home. Much to learn people — I have tons to learn — only officially stuck my foot in my mouth once… but it was very heavily placed there.. recovered for the most part but I will have a queasy feel until I speak with the clients again. [just me being insane -- we have covered this already... stop beating a dead horse]. —- Meeting lasts until 3:45pm. Then had to chat with the boss before he left. I grabbed my bags – including laptop – files — purse that could actually be considered carry on luggage on a plane –lol — then off I go.
I had to be back on the other side of town by 5pm. Oh did I forget to tell you … it is raining sheets of rain — sporadically going on and off — we have tornado warnings going on — Texans’ do not know how to drive in the rain.. or any weather for that matter… we have it so infrequently. Accident’s are everywhere so travel time is extended.
I arrived at my destination 6 minutes prior to 5 and just before the general contractor — who is a new general contractor — so he needs to be brought up to speed before the clients arrive. They arrive a few minutes late.. thank goodness … we do the 1st walk through of the house — which is after the foundation, framing and roof is built. We have 3 other walk though’s prior to closing…. which is scheduled September 19th.
Oh… just a note… Realtors work Pro Bono… which means I get paid when the house closes. So since April I have kept up the pace and I have not received my first pay check yet. Nice Huh? … Oh yeah did I mention this is my day off.. tomorrow is my day off .. but I bet you can guess my schedule for tomorrow?
Insanity… can you define it?
UPDOs on Down Days
IT’s rare that I put my hair up. I don’t like doing it because it shows off my evlish ears and my very german nose. However, when in a jam and my had just does not want to conform to the I want it to do I twist is about and slam in a few chop sticks .. jsut so I can pook my head everal times that day just for fun…. Well I had serveral compliments on my hair so I thought I would share with you in entrace and exit wounds from the chop stickes lol … I did hair in 3 minutes tops and didn’t see the back until I took a picture of it. lol… So a small girlie pat on the back seemed in order. Pat Pat Part
UPDO last Minute
Now for the other stuff happening latelty, I will take a day or tow to piece the propler puzzle pieces so htat I can discuss them clearly.
Otherwise I succomb to my girlie moment …. How do you like my hair?